I'm a big fan of Cracked.com - specifically, the lists. Every day, they publish 2 or 3 on varying topics - pop culture, science, history, etc. They are always funny, and (without exception) fascinating. For a humor website, they're oddly informative.
A couple days ago, I stumbled across this article, and it really hit home for me. The title is a little off-putting ("Why would I want to read about 6 harsh things?") but give it a chance. You want to read it because you want to be a useful person. You really do.
I started this project to feel useful; I was tired of feeling lazy and boring. Since leaving college, I've worked a lot in my chosen field, but I've also bounced around between day jobs. I generally don't make much money, and sometimes the things I do to earn an income don't feel very fulfilling. Teaching is very useful, but I'm not truly trained to teach - some days I'm so terrified of screwing-up those kids that I just want to have a panic attack under my bed.
But that wouldn't help anyone - least of all, me. So instead, I decided to make something. I forget sometimes that I can do that - that I'm a person with a brain and a lot of time, and when you combine those ingredients with an idea, you can create something out of nothing. I love personal style blogs, and I've secretly always wanted my own, so why not make one?
For a while, I kept the project a secret. I was afraid of people rolling their eyes. "Does the world need another blog?" I don't know, probably not. But the world doesn't need a lot of things - that doesn't mean it isn't nice to have them. Blogging is perhaps a little stupid (the word "blog" certainly is), but I'd rather make something dumb than not make anything at all. Snapping photos with my phone and writing entries is more productive than playing Tetris on Facebook.
It's also much more fulfilling. I didn't realize it until today, but the nagging voice in the back of my brain (The "What are you going to do with your life?") voice is gone. At least, for now. It might come back up, but for the time being I'm content. I have something to look forward to every day - I have a project that won't close in three weeks, like the amazing show I'm doing.
You know, that might be part of my old malaise. My career lacks consistency - and so so my day jobs. In a world of constant juggling, this URL is a bit of consistency. It's a project that can last as long as I want it to.